Monday, February 28, 2005

Deja Vu

dé·jà vu
n.
  1. Psychology. The illusion of having already experienced something actually being experienced for the first time.
    1. An impression of having seen or experienced something before: Old-timers watched the stock-market crash with a distinct sense of déjà vu.

Yeah that is what happened to me today. It has happened a few times the past few months but today was very very strong. One of the strongest Vu's I've ever experienced.

There I was working away when I FELT IT COMING!!!!

I was doing the same thing, seeing the same things, and thinking of the same thing...er....person when all of a sudden WHAM!!!!!

The most vivid deja vu I've ever experienced in years!!! I have felt it very vividly before but not this vivid in a long time. What does it mean? Well I can't say for certain but I can tell you that it was one of the most amazing things I've felt when I've not been dreaming.

Lately my dreams have been very interesting and very vivid....very happy dreams. This deja vu though made me very happy!

It was very surreal but in a very good way, my words can't even begin to describe it the way I felt it so I'll stop.

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Not A Bad Weekend!

A decent werewolf movie, quality time with friends, the problem with a place for rehearsals resolved, and nice weather!

All of the ingrediants for a good weekend were at hand these past two days.

I wish everyone's weekend was as nice as mine was!!

Friday, February 25, 2005

Parts Accepted!

All parts have now been offered and accepted!
Rehearsals have been set for next Friday and Saturday and the following Friday and Saturday with filming set for March 19th!!!!

Looks like my CPA isn't going to get my taxes done before filming starts so I probably won't be able to get the camera I want for the shoot. However I will have enough to finance the travel for my out of town actors and feed my cast and crew!

It isn't much....right now but it is a start!

Things are going very well, thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers!!!!

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

SUCCESS!!!!

YES Success!!!!
I cast 9 out of 10 parts!!!!!
It was GREAT!!!!
I was very happy with the turn out and the results!!!!
For this area that just isnt' a hotbed of film activity I had about 15 people show up!!!!
I am on my way to a successful film!!!!!

Monday, February 21, 2005

Today Is The Day.....For Now

Yes, today is the day that will start the process of a successful movie or a not as successful movie.
Anyone who has read my modest script will tell you that it will be as successful as the actors portrayal of the characters.

It is very dependent upon the actors. There just isn't enough going on in the script that isn't dependent upon the actors so they will really carry this movie. There isn't much that I, the director, will be able to do if the characters aren't fully realized other than offer instruction and encouragement.

In this regard I am helpless and dependent upon the talent. I am both anxious and confident that the talent of those who will be cast tonight and this week will shine!

I'm thrilled and excited beyond words!

Saturday, February 19, 2005

A Fine Response!

With the auditions on Monday I have had a fine resonse from the ad I placed and am anticipating between 20-50 people to show up!

I have had a wonderful experience with the board of directors from the Gaslight! They have been very accomodating and willing to go the extra mile with this production! I will include them as well as the incredible folks at Big Country Meat Market in the film credits somehow.

So now on to my week's DVD purchase: Donnie Darko the director's cut.
This was a very David Lynchian production. You aren't sure what you are watching until it is over with and then you really start to wonder what you saw.
An amazing and original movie that is quirky, tragic, tender, dramatic, and at a couple of times comedic.

This is a movie that should inspire indie filmmakers to pursue their concepts no matter how bizarre they could be.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Coffee Cards And Vanilla Candles

This morning I was one stamp closer to obtaining a free cup of coffee at the quick shop where I buy my morning coffee. I get excited when I get a free cup. I pay for five get the sixth free, not bad?!
On my way home I decided that I haven't had a vanilla candle in about three weeks so I got three of them!

I like it when my Hopperesque house smells of fine vanilla;)

What does this have to do with filmmaking and my auditions on Monday?
I thought about what my life would be like without a coffee card. It isn't just a mundane worry you know. Coffee and Tea are what gets me going in the morning. I used to drink a bottle of Coke and have a couple of bags of M&M's when I was younger and more bullet proof. However I'm not as bullet proof so I stick to coffee and tea now. I have found that it is easier to concentrate when the world isn't vibrating away during my sugary binges while I bounce off of the walls.

So now I have my coffee card to look forward to helping me get through the week. Monday I usually get my free cup after a whole week of looking forward to collecting that beautiful red stamp of a steaming cup of coffee on my little tan card. I keep my card just behind my ID and in front of my time card in a little plastic holder I wear around my neck at work. The free coffee day rotates ofcourse but it always seems to be the best when my week starts with the free cup.

So how could two mundane events be relevant to this blog? I just keep thinking that if a free cup of coffee and the amazing smell of vanilla candles are one of the things I really look forward to right now then I really need to do a great job with Locker.

Somedays I get up and dread going to work but I KNOW that there are some people where I work who can't wait to get there in the mornings. This is wonderful!! If everyone didn't love their jobs then nothing would ever get done. Vital social services would degrade and fall into ruin. However I don't think I'm cut out for this anymore.

I have found my passion and when you find your passion you only want a few things afterward.
1. To be able to experience your passion everyday. You can't wait to do it again when you finish up for the day!
2. Someone to share it with.
3. Friends and family around you to share in the joy of your passion.

So for now I am enjoying the incredible aroma of Glade French Vanilla candles and tomorrow I look forward to getting my fifth stamp on my coffee card.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

APPROVED!

Yes!
The audition location site was approved last night for the Gaslight Theater!
My ad for auditions starts today in the paper!
I have already had several requests for scripts, times, and the location which I can now tell them exactly when and where to be!

I'm going to have to come up with a word for beyond excitement if it keeps going this well!

In other news, I received my copy of the first season of Deadwood yesterday. An amazing show with simply the best villain I have seen since Vic Mackey from The Shield. Yes Al Swearengen is much better than Tony Soprano, much better than Darth Vader, much better than Kyser Soze, well Al is simply the best bad guy in the biz right now!

A belated Happy V-Day and to all of you who received my ecards, yes you really do mean that much to me or more!

Friday, February 11, 2005

Ad in the Paper!

Yes my excitement knows no bounds!
I have placed my audition ad in the local paper today! It runs from Tuesday till next Monday which is the day of the auditions!!!!

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Audition Call!!!

Yes I have begun advertising for auditions!

No my taxes haven't been done yet which I was counting on, however I am pressing on anyway and doing everything I can afford at the moment!

Excitement just isn't the word for what I am feeling!

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Successful Meeting!

Yes last night was a very successful meeting! Much was accomplished as the priorites were laid out with auditions being up at the top of the list!

Yes I don't want a situation where we have the auditions and no one show up!
So now the auditions are scheduled right now for Monday the 21st.

My taxes are being figured and hopefully next week they will be filed so I can give a definitive answer as to what I am going to do with the refund!

Saturday, February 05, 2005

They Don't Make Scary Movies Anymore, Do They?

Well hello film fans and welcome to my corner of the web this morning!
I take keyboard in hand this morning to fill you in on something I have found disturbing the past.....ten or twenty years or so.

They quit making scary movies.

Allow me to place this into context. When I was in high school a very good friend and I saw The Texas Chainsaw Massacre for the first time. I remember in my childhood after 10 P.M. the tv trailers of this scared me to pieces!!! I never had the courage to actually watch it in fact!

So one day after running the paper route with my friend we decided to rent it at a local quick shop and watch it. It had such an effect on me that I haven't watched it since! It was raw, brutal, it was one of the most disturbing movies I've ever seen. It had very little blood in it but the images were horrific and stuck with me!

Now fast forward to today's movies, in my case most recently Hide and Seek and Boogeyman. You can actually replace any contemporary horror film title in here, it really doesn't matter. They are a mix and match of cliches now. Take one person, add a messed up event in this person's life, add a goofy legend, twist, tradition, or idea hook mix, rinse, repeat until the body count is high enough.

Hide and Seek was just stupid, as I posted earlier. The person who cut that trailer should get a bonus for making that film the number one film of the week because that is what did it! Boogeyman? Well it was about as bad. I was impressed that there was only one foul word used in the past TWO (Hide and Seek and Boogeyman) movies. And that was in Hide and Seek, as I earlier posted, the "F" word was used by DeNiro. Again not that I'm against such language at all, I just know that a strong movie doesn't depend on language, gore, or CGI effects. If they would understand tension and how to create it they could have raised these movies to a much higher level instead of using cheap, stupid scares to get an audience to jump.

Somewhere someone decided to get away from creating true tension in a film and substitute sudden, jolting noises with fast movement on screen....or the "Cat in the Closet" scare. Where somehow the cat got into the dark scary closet and when the door is opened the cat jumps out in a cheap scare to get the audience to jump. Well it has been done too much and now the things that they think are truly scary on screen....fall flat.

To illustrate this point. I nearly predicted what would happen in almost every step with probably 75% accuracy to a friend who genuinely gets scared at these movies. I tried to calm her by telling her about the cliches that they use and when to see when they are going to be used. By the end of the movie she started to see that it was kind of funny and they were cheesy!
Honestly I don't think she will have a problem seeing most of today's scary movies now. I wouldn't recommend the original TCM, Jaws, or Alien but just about anything else done in the past 15 years is no problem and can be funny when you can see things coming!!!

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Pre Production Meeting Scheduled!

7 p.m. at a local coffee shop!
Yes that is correct, the meeting that will lay the groudwork and responsibilities for everyone involved!

Vicariously excited?

Well I'll be excited for the both of us!!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2005

My Blog My Short Story

Well since this is my blog and I wrote a very short story about a week ago I thought I would post it. I hope you like it but if you don't then feel free to tell me how stupid it is:) I really don't mind, but I hope you might be touched by a part of it or connect with one of the many metaphors. Enjoy it or hate it, its your choice and right to do either or both! We all have a choice.

He met her on a very sunny bright day. The park was nearly closed now and had fallen into disrepair but it was still a place she loved to go. She loved the chipped paint and the rusty metal that littered the place. Broken neon tubes were here and there and some of them might have worked if anyone had cared to turn them on at dusk. The workers, the ones that were left, passed their time by staring out of the gates and deserted booth and wondering how they came to this fate, almost waiting for the final death of the park so they could bury it and carry on with their empty shallow lives.
"Coffee?", she asked.
"Sure." he said. They started to walk towards the rusty metal gate.
"They have never seen the beauty in this place. I see this and can imagine what it used to be like, years ago, but I can see it." He turned to her, "Really? I kind of thought this had always been almost closed and falling apart."
"Not at all. I can see that at one time this park had a lot. Well before in more innocent times when it was fun to get a snow cone and ride a ferris wheel." It was her turn to look at him now. "I bet they used to have ponies to ride too."
"Why do you still come here?"
"Vestiges of my childhood," she started, "Some of my happier moments were spent around a place like this. It makes me sad to see the shape it is in but at least it exists, the one I know of was gone years ago."
"You have a thing for the past?" He looked sideways at her.
"Not really that so much but I like things that have a past to them, a history. I could live in a ghost town if the ghosts wouldn't mind."
"I used to know of a couple, when I was a kid I used to walk down a set of railroad tracks and they went through a place that used to be a town before the highway was moved five miles away and no one came through there anymore. The houses were all empty and they still had mostly dirt streets. The buildings had wood floors in them even. It was really nice to walk the streets. It was almost like someone was having a party and everyone in the town went to it and left the town for a few hours. It was just sitting there waiting for the people to come back and pick up their lives again." He smiled as the memory washed over him.
"I can almost see that if I close my eyes. It sounds nice. Would you take me?"
"I can't."
"Why? Is it because I just met you and you think I'm odd?"
"No, not at all,lightning burned it down. With no one around for miles the fire just burned everything, there isn't much left but a few foundations now. What makes you think you're odd?"
"Well if I had just started talking to me I'd think that, especially in a amusement park that has seen its better days."
"Ever been down route 66?"
"YES!"
"It is great to see some of those towns but can you guess what I like most about them?"
"Let me think for a second," she put her finger to her lips in concentration. "The old motels?"
"You are good, I love the signs, the big neon, rusted, broken signs that were in front of the motels."
"Why?"
"Same reason that you like broken amusement parks I guess, brings back memories. I like to think about what things used to be like in their prime. I can show you things like that if you'd like to see them."
"You know the way to a girl's heart don't you?"
"Not really but when you see the only person in a park like this you start to wonder if you have something in common with her."
"Do we?"
"Too early to tell but I think we might."
"My grandparents were like that. I don't think I ever heard one of them say "I love you"
"Really? That is sad."
"OH NO. They loved each other so much that they never had to, they just knew it. They felt it was an honor to be with each other. They just knew when they needed space, they knew when they needed each other, they knew just what the other one needed, sometimes before they knew it for themselves. It was incredible!"
"What does this have to do with abandoned parks and ghost towns?"
"A lot if you think about it for a second." She smiles like she knows something he doesn't know. "He was a few years older and worked at something every single day. After years and years it took its toll on his body and it was hard for him to physically take care of himself. So she took care of him and never uttered one word of complaint. She thought he was still the best thing that ever happened to her and insisted on doing all of the things he couldn't anymore, and he never complained about his increasing pain or disabilities. He could still work with his hands a bit and used to carve her figures from wood. She took the tenderest care of him and protected him and he would give her a wooden horse or a rose or whatever he had carved for her. She would always act surprised and act like it was the most precious thing she had ever gotten, and in a real way it was."
He wiped his eye a bit.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to make you sad."
"No! Oh no not at all, that is beautiful, but what about the park?"
"Taking care of him was very hard on her and after a few years she fell sick and died shortly after. He refused to eat much and kind of grieved himself to death a few weeks after. I was there to clean out the house and go through everything to take to the salvation army and see what the family wanted to keep. I found a lot of pictures from when they were young, about our age. They were so full of life! Young and vibrant! From when I knew from them growing up they were always older and I never thought of them as young like I was. But it was them, you could see the same eyes the desire they had for each other, it was still there when I knew them."
"I see what you are saying now, it taught you to appreciate the way things were at one time and not to see them like they are now and how good they could be maybe?"
"Yeah, sort of but that sums it up."
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"You know."


The End

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Two Movies Two Days!

Well it is now early Saturday evening and I just finished going to two different movies in two days with two different friends in two different cities!

Whewwww.......

Last night saw the horribly bad Hide and Seek. I have no clue as to who screwed up that movie but I bet that Robert DeNiro has to be ashamed to have been a part of that one!!! I can't describe how bad it really was but it was bad....I had to come home and take aspirin to counter that kind of pain!!!

However there was one amazing feat that Hide and Seek accomplished, despite its R rating there was only one foul word. DeNiro dropped the F word one time. Personally I don't use language like that however I don't mind it at all. I remember a quote I heard a long time ago that it was a lazy mind that had a hard time trying to express itself in any other creative way. That paraphrased quote had an effect on me that I just decided I didn't need to use it and when a time came up that I felt using it, it forced me to think of something else to say.

Today I saw The Woodsman. A Kevin Bacon movie that has some very dark and disturbing content. I was in awe at how they skillfully handled such a touchy subject and there were times I wanted to nearly scream NO! at the character on the screen! I just can't get into it here since I don't like spoilers so I won't but I can only think that if it wasn't for indie's out here that aren't in Hollywoodland powerful and shocking movies such as The Woodsman would never be made.

I mean how exactly do you pitch a movie with content like that to a major studio???

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Audition Location Meeting

February 14th I will attend a meeting at the local theater group to secure the location for auditions!

This will give me time to conduct a preproduction meeting to clean up any loose ends that I might have not thought of. I know I've spent a lot of time trying to think of the things I haven't thought of but you never know what you have overlooked so you look to others to offer opinions on your production plans. If I have not thought of something then someone will bring it up and I can either answer it or change something.

Yes making a movie is very collaborative. I'm blessed to have some great creative minds around me to help!!!!

Monday, January 24, 2005

Location for Auditions Possibly Secured!!!

Things look to be falling into place faster and faster now!

I believe that I now have a location for auditions secured. I know I was planning on placing an ad today for the auditions and I knew I had a place locked up for that however I think I have a better place now!!!

If our schedules mesh then it will be a done deal!!!

I'm still excited, things really are going according to plan!
This should allow me to have a week of advertising time, a evening of auditions and about 2 weeks of rehearsals and then shooting!!!!

YES!!!

Friday, January 21, 2005

Location SECURED!

Yes you read correctly! It is time for the next step now which is placing ads for auditions!!!

Big Country meat market has generously allowed us to use their deep freeze. I offered to rent it and he declined saying it was no problem at all as long as the door was shut!!!

What a great guy and company!!!

Now on to Monday when I start placing ads!!!
Yes I'm excited!!!

In fact I'm so excited that in my zeal I called and woke up a friend from a nap....I hope she isn't too bothered and will excuse my enthusiasm and will laugh about it later:)

Monday, January 17, 2005

Locations Scouted!!!

Yes sweet progress has been done this day!
My partner and I traveled around town today and scouted four locations, one of them was very positive and one that I would love to shoot at! There were also suggestions for other places if the one I really want doesn't work out. I have a good feeling about this place, there is a large walk in deep freeze!

Yes it is perfect! There are now several options and I couldn't be more thrilled! The Film Commission still has not responded to Chris's request but I have a feeling that they will be very helpful even if they can't locate a locker to shoot in.

It will be difficult to sleep tonight, I'm very happy about this!

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Numerology and You???

Alright, anyone who knows me knows that
1. I'm not superstitious.
2. I think paranormal stuff is interesting.
3. I think psychics are frauds.

So let me begin by saying that I listen to a radio show called Coast to Coast AM which deals with UFOs, ghosts, bigfoot, etc. Right? Ok.
Well there was a lady on there the other night who was a numerologist and she told people how to break down your name and birthday into your "lifepath"(My name is a 1, my birthday is a 9 and when combined 1+9=10 so you break that down to a single digit 1+0=1) which is supposed to be compatible with another number...or what numbers you are compatible with and what numbers are toxic to you and it just won't work out.

So skeptical me decided to break down my full name and my birthday and it comes to a 1 (as I just demonstrated) when both are put together. That means (according to her) that I am compatible (I get along with these more than any other number) with any 1, 5, or a 7. If I find out someone I know is a 1, 5, or a 7 then I'd like to examine how we interact to see exactly if we do get along....or if you are a 3, 6, or a 9 (incompatible with my 1 number) or a 2, 4, or a 6(compatible but not as strong as a 1, 5, 7)

What I suspect is this...that I know many people who break down in to all 9 numbers and I probably am friends with the veritable spectrum of said people. If I had never known what their full name and birthday reduced down to then I'd have never known NOT to be incompatible with them.....kind of a self fulfilling prophecy.

If I believed in such things;)

Alright....here is what is up.....It is late and I'm having a hard time getting to sleep!
I have scheduled Monday (with filmmaking partner Chris) to location scout 3 recommended places!!!!! Yes I'm excited!!!

Yes I know this is two posts in one day, I'm an over achiever....well according to my 1 number that is......